sucre et venin

夏休み

夏休み、楽しいです！！

夏らしいことは全てしました。

ワタシワ日本イクテ。        

暑いです…。

Panda

Pandaワ可愛ダヨネ？

Cute panda..

- yami♥

(Thursday)

hello, to whoever is reading.

最近はとても寒い日が続いています。

そちらはどうですか？

風邪には気をつけてくださいね。

うん。

漠然とした。

雪ですか？

いいえ。

stars are made of candy sugar.

- YamiMi ♥

(Monday)

wow, january’s nearly ended. i’m so disappointed in myself. i’ve barely done anything this month, i’ve barely accomplished anything.

actually, it’s depressing how much time i spend doing the homeworks for classes, it all seems so pointless. i spend months completing all the homeworks, and is it all even worth it in the end? if i hand in an essay, days of writing scrawled onto sheets of paper, it gets marked. but then what? soon after, all the work is forgotten. no one would even know it existed. it seems pointless, especially when i don’t learn anything from it.

my days are basically waking up early to do homework, going to school, missing lunchtime to do homework, going home when classes finish, eat dinner, do more homework or study, and then fall asleep a couple of hours after midnight or pass out on the floor. it’s really straining. i just want to forget about things, even if it’s just half an hour, or else i will freak out and die.

i’m not exaggerating. this is just the way i see things. you see things your way, i see things my way. it’s good that i have the mind and opportunity to express my views and opinions (^-^)

 i’m a very reserved person. i keep my problems to myself because i realise that most of the time, i can figure them out on my own. someone told me that i am too closed in on myself. maybe i am, it’s not because i am stuck-up. i just think that people should try to sort things out themselves. people should rely on themselves more because not everyone is going to be there when you need them. don’t get me wrong, i’m not saying you should ignore other people’s advice. they can be important too. but if you always took their advice and let them influence you, if they are wrong you will blame them right? maybe just a little bit. you’ve got to blame yourself too sometimes too. you can learn a lot on your own.

it was so cold i was shivering for the whole day! (^o^)/

- yami